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Dry and dusty

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 26, 2014, 5:28 PM
Never leave me
Walk close beside me
Your hand, my hand
Fits so easy

No tomorrow
Let us stop here
We did some great things
Or didn't we

Dry and dusty
I am a capsule of energy
You speak softly
We are capsules of energy

Work as I've been told
In return I get money
Small feet in your hall
And I long for every moment

Dry and dusty
I am a capsule of energy
You speak softly
We are capsules of energy

~Fever Ray

Discovery by Philomena-Famulok
Above the abyss by MenoevilFarewell She Whispered by NataliaDrepina
Avis mater by AndreaMelendez
:heart:Support by Spinewinder:heart:

If you like my work please visit my website or join me on FB using the links below.



  • Listening to: Fever Ray
  • Watching: The Bourne Supremacy
  • Drinking: Water

It's been a while...

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 13, 2013, 7:28 PM
Well...I haven't been around much. I apologize for not keeping up with messages, comments, etc.

I haven't been on here since I've made my new website and FB page, please visit them using the links at the bottom of the journal!

It's been a busy year. I graduated with a Bachelors in Fine Arts from The University of Michigan-Flint in May for a start. I travelled to Wales again to visit my love Tim and last month he visited me. I've done lots of traveling within my own beautiful state of Michigan, and took a short trip to Chicago with Tim while he was here. Other than that I've just been working. My art has been put on the back burner, unfortunately. But I've got some plans in the works, so we'll see how it goes.

Anyway, last year I bought a pair of costume ram horns and have since used them in 2 photo shoots (3 if you count the failed shoot with my 8-year-old niece lol). So...it seems I've moved off gas masks a bit and have become more visually fascinated with horns! So here's a feature of some lovely images involving them :)

ABANDONED SACRIFICES - I by kevissimo

Dryad III by PorcelainPoet Chamanka by CaradelNeil

Buttercream tales by Ophelia-Overdose Buttercream nymph by Ophelia-Overdose

1 by o-Opium Sylvan by MariannaInsomnia

the forgotten queen. by Senju-HiMe Demoness by MariannaInsomnia

daemmerung by silent-order


Thank you to my boyfriend Tim aka :iconspinewinder: for helping me out and making me my own fancy facebook and website link/logo :) 



If you like my work please visit my website or join me on FB using the links below.



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  • Listening to: Lykke Li
  • Reading: Dog treat recipes
  • Watching: Detroit Tigers
  • Eating: Pumpkin banana bread
  • Drinking: Water

The end is near...

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 24, 2013, 8:43 AM
The end of school that is ;) 8 weeks left of my final semester in college. I've never been one to be sad about such things. I'm just ready for it to be over. I've finally posted the last of my Sleep Interrupted series. I wish it was what I had hoped, but it just didn't hit the mark for me. Glad to be done with that as well. I'm not currently in a photography course. I am, however in a portfolio class attempting to stitch all my work together in a final, presentable format. My instruction is simply more color. That's difficult for me, but it's a necessary evil that I must conquer in order to attain my goals in this field.

In celebration of my new assignment, here are a few color pieces that I love.

Nea Dune by sanjalydia
Norms by Julie-de-Waroquier
Unattainable by nile-can-too
occasional reincarnation by bitterev
Cephalopod Girl by PreciousLittle
Structure of the living things by cunene
:heart: The Aviator by Spinewinder :heart:

If you like my work please visit my website or join me on FB using the links below.



  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: In This Moment
  • Reading: Lectures
  • Watching: Rio Bravo
  • Eating: A Pluot
  • Drinking: Water

Dogs

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 27, 2012, 8:03 PM
Jingdi my Jack Russell by Menoevil
And then it rained II by Menoevil
Every kick, every dream by Kyarumi
My dog... by mirkochessari
Hopeful by CristinaPenescu

There's nothing like the unconditional love from a dog.
My dogs are my world :heart:
Wicket and I by ShyCrow
My Boys by ShyCrow

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  • Eating: Sushi
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...

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 18, 2012, 10:58 PM
This is how I show my love
I made it in my mind because
I blame it on my ADD, baby

This is how an angel cries
I blame it on my own sick pride
Blame it on my ADD baby

Maybe I should cry for help
Maybe I should kill myself
Blame it on my ADD baby

Maybe I'm a different breed
Maybe I'm not listening
So blame it on my ADD baby

Sail with me into the dark

~Awolnation

Resistance_107 by FredericPayen
: Duality : by sabbbriCA
Tree of past by Thetrueguiltya sense of grey II by LostOneself
Strivers by DominikKucera
facade.. by Spinewinder

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Found My Place

Journal Entry: Sat Jun 2, 2012, 9:09 PM
Lightning splits the sky
Shining blinding white
And here I lie almost asleep
Reckoning in a place of peace

And I feel
I found my place
In time and space
In hope and faith
And love I give
My mind is clear
I have no fear
I shed no tears
For you my dear

This world is wonderful, so beautiful
If only you can open up your mind and see

Your world is everything you ever dreamed of
If only you can open up your mind and see

The beauty that is here

~Anathema www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNSPXI…

The Dancer II by Sarachmet
lucid dream by bitterevwaiting. by Perspeqtive
collector of souls by dihaze
.silence. by life-number-9The Ghosts You Draw... by DominikKucera
Donna Rosa by bitterev



By my love
:heart: Aloft by Spinewinder :heart:

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For the love of hate

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 21, 2012, 10:20 AM
My Tim's newest :heart: So very clever and captivating.
Show it some love...though it's highly unlikely to show you any love in return ;)
Hate machine by Spinewinder

Other beautiful things that I think you should admire :heart:
fallen dream by leichenblassLife Is No Piece of Cake by JillAuville
.the beautiful silence. by life-number-9I need a place to be alone by Meravigiliosa

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you"
But somehow I know that you will never leave me

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

~Evanescence

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Time for my breakdown

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 11, 2012, 9:48 AM
All alone, it was always there you see
And even on my own, it was always standing next to me

I can see it coming from the edge of the room
Creeping in the streetlight
Holding my hand in the pale gloom
Can you see it coming now?

Oh, I think I'm breaking down again
Oh, I think I'm breaking down

All alone, even when I was a child
I've always known, there was something to be frightened of

All alone, on the edge of sleep
My old familiar friend comes and lies down next to me

And I can see you coming from the edge of the room
Smiling in the streetlight
Even with my eyes shut tight
I still see you coming now

Oh, I think I'm breaking down again

~Florence + The Machine

.silence. by life-number-94.48 by life-number-9
In memoriam by AndreaMelendez
Transmutacion by AndreaMelendezHaunted by KayleighJune
... by CaradelNeil
Echoes of schizophrenia by xHIMSOULSxroses fairy tales by xHIMSOULSx

The time has come for my breakdown. It happens every semester. Everyone wants a piece of me and there isn't enough to go around. I just have too much work to do. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THE FAVES! I really appreciate all the love for my DD and other pieces. That was a wonderful day filled with confidence boosts and my heart was smiling for hours, but it's back to reality. I will try my best to thank you all individually, but right now with all that I have to do I'm fighting to keep my head above water. So anyway, enjoy the beautiful works above. I absolutely LOVE them and I'll catch y'all when I'm done ripping all my hair out from stress :heart:
:iconluckeycharme:Also, I'll be photographing my sister soon. She draws, check her out.
Matthew Gray Gubler by LuckeyCharme

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Gone in a flash

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 3, 2012, 7:02 PM
Arise
And reach to other worlds
Right through the needle's eye
Come take your first look inside
Arise
Our fate is all we know
Rising up into another world
A fate we all would change

~Chevelle :heart:

Dying Wish by 0Gutter-Glitter
:thumb276796764:
Take my hand by Elfyah
in paradise by leichenblass

Well...back to school...so...catch ya later.

My honey's latest :)
Sheep.. by Spinewinder

:heart:

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Too lost to lose

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 18, 2011, 11:19 PM
Ashes you leave by pishchanskamagic of evening by solomon17
:thumb274531773:Amabilis insania IV by AndreaMelendez
feline.. by Spinewinder



Just a little update and mini feature. Been inactive for a while. Was a crazy semester. Got another one just ahead so I'm about to disappear again. I appreciate the faves from the past few months, and I'm sorry I haven't had time to thank everyone individually. Just too much going on. Been kinda disappointed with my work lately. Hopefully I get out of this funk soon and start producing work I'm proud of. Anyway...hope you enjoy the work featured above as much as I do :heart:

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  • Reading: Messages
  • Watching: Despicable Me
  • Playing: In photoshop
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Spinewinder

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 19, 2011, 10:33 PM
If you want to see amazingly beautiful artwork that will speak volumes of emotion to your soul then you should check out my boyfriend's website that he finally got up and running :)

timdickinsonart.yolasite.com/ <---click that...

And after that go check him out on dA :iconspinewinder: but please look at his website first, mmk? ;)
Here are some of his pieces for you immediate viewing pleasure...:heart:

Low by Spinewinder
Away... by Spinewinder
Absent by SpinewinderInside by Spinewinder
Void by Spinewinder

(He'll also do commissions if you ask!)

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  • Watching: Big Bang Theory
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  • Drinking: Strawberry lemonade

Hello hello...

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 10, 2011, 9:59 PM
I've been believing in something so distant, as if I was human
And I've been denying this feeling of hopelessness
In me, in me

All the promises I made, just to let you down
You believed me, but I broke it

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

As much as I'd like the past not to exist, it still does
And as much as I like to feel like I belong here
I'm just as scared as you...
-Evanescence

Eterne V by Sarachmet
oh, so u think u know me now by NuSuntalien4 by CaradelNeil
:thumb213695867:Untitled by AndreaMelendez

In trasparenza by Blekotakra

I've been inactive for a while, and I want to apologize again for it. I just returned from my trip to Wales recently and have now begun my senior year of college. I wish I could be back in the UK, not only is it absolutely beautiful, but my wonderful boyfriend is also there. Spending two weeks traveling around the UK with him was such a great escape and coming back to reality was much more difficult than I could have ever imagined. It felt so much like paradise. Anyway, I hope to be posting new work soon. I'm in two photography classes, so I should be able to come up with something worthy of sharing with you. Other than that...from the moment it was released, I just can't seem to get Evanescence's new single out of my head. It's rather catchy, along with other bits and pieces from the album that I've stumbled across...can't wait for the album next month :) Thanks for your patience if you actually read all of this haha.

:heart:

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I apologize...

Journal Entry: Wed Jun 8, 2011, 1:57 PM
I'm very sorry for not being so active. I really am so grateful for every fave and watch, it means so much to me, and I feel horrible that I haven't been able to thank you individually. Life has just spun out of control with working all the time, school, taking and editing photos for clients, tutoring a family friend for his photography class, and other daily necessities. It's been so long since I've been able to create my own artwork and I really miss it. Hopefully this is only a temporary situation and I can start to breathe again...soon...

THANK YOU!! :heart: :heart: :heart:

Mini feature:

Rose by Cori-Ch4n
I got lost... by LunaLemon
d r o m o m a n i a by bitterev

I know these are random, but I don't have time to care haha. I like them. The first one is by my best friend :D

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  • Drinking: Ice tea

Help Fit For Rivals!

Journal Entry: Mon May 16, 2011, 7:11 PM
You guys should check out and help out the band Fit For Rivals. My future brother-in-law, Eli, is their bassist! They have played shows with bands such as Godsmack, Seether, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Halestorm (one of my favorites!), and plenty more that I'm sure you'd recognize.

They need to raise $9,500 by June 14 in order to make their next album. Great musicians, great people, and they could really use your help. Whether you donate or just spread the word, every little bit helps.
Please spread the world!

Go here to donate to the project (even if it's just $1):
www.kickstarter.com/projects/1…

Go here to learn a bit while being entertained by a nifty video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Mk8ly…

And/or go here to see the video for my favorite song of theirs:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=xusC01…

And on a different note, here are some pictures that I'm loving at the moment :heart:

:thumb193457167:
Silence? by FurrrkaEscapar by ixchell
I Came So Close by MartinStranka
dance by cllozdemir

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  • Watching: The time
  • Eating: Nothing...but I'm hungry.
  • Drinking: Mike's

The Lonely

Journal Entry: Tue May 3, 2011, 10:43 AM
2am, where do I begin? Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness, wants to follow me to bed

I'm the ghost of a girl that I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Then you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again...

Too afraid, to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me 'til I fall asleep

Broken pieces of a barely breathing story
Where there once was love, now there's only me
And the lonely...

Can't get enough of Christina Perri :)
I recommend listening to this beautiful song-->www.youtube.com/watch?v=HO4e4n…
And give some love to the lovely pieces featured below :heart:

I'm Waiting for You by MarinaCoricmy birds... by vvola
Still There by MartinStrankaparadise suburb by bitterev
asleep by Catliv..watch your shadow.. by life-number-9
Laurel03 by FeebrileMay in wonderland by arayo

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  • Watching: The time
  • Eating: Nothing...but I'm hungry.
  • Drinking: Water

Butterfly Cry

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 23, 2011, 12:04 AM
Did I hurt you?
Did I ever made you bleed inside?
Did I kill you?
I didn't mean to make you hide yourself
Find you in you, beautiful
Do not grow the seeds of pain in you
Goodbye

Let the butterflies cry
Let them cry for you
And you just dry your eyes
Because the world is wonderful


"Butterfly Cry" - Kerli :heart:

Butterfly effect by LaMusaTriste
fluttering heartbeat by CharlotteDeSmith
Butterfly Caught by PorcelainPoetescapist by DanieOpheliacLet me be your butterfly by AnjaRoehrich
:thumb192631109:
Muse by iNeedChemicalX

Fragile and beautiful :)

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  • Watching: TNBC
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Black + Blue

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 27, 2011, 8:46 PM
And I've been meaning to say this to you.
My heart isn't black and blue anymore
And your words don't mean a thing
When they're sung in vain

Maybe I was wrong, I only remember feeling so alone

This isn't where I meant to lay down
But you dug this grave, fits me perfectly

And if you're asking if I'm over love
You're a fool to believe that you gave me some

It's been raining here like it never should
And I can't help believe it's because you're coming
And if a child wants to run away and a child wants to hide
Don't come following her fantasies
'Cause you might be surprised she'll run right back inside

And if you're asking if I'm over love
You're a fool to believe, you're a fool to believe
That you gave me some

"Black + Blue" - Christina Perri :heart:


and there was light by NuSuntPeople Are Strange by YourForgiveness
And A Morning Has Begun by MartinStrankaletting go by latoday
my baby shot me down by Catliv

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Happy Birthday, Rebecca!

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 24, 2011, 11:26 PM
:party:
I would like to say happy birthday to my beautiful model :iconpanecks:
I really appreciate all the modeling you've done for me these past...what...3 years? You're awesome and I have been so lucky to have you as both my model and my friend :) So...here are some pictures of you from the past few years just because... :heart:

Survivors by ShyCrow
Shy Away by ShyCrowJust Leave by ShyCrow
Doomsday Defense by ShyCrowMostly Gone by ShyCrow
Breathe Again by ShyCrowBreathless by ShyCrow
One last look before I go by ShyCrow
Forbidden Fruit by ShyCrow

:blowkiss:
I hope your birthday is wonderful.

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Jar of Hearts

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 10, 2011, 9:33 AM
I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me. Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back, you don't get to get me back

"Jar of Hearts" - Christina Perri www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O4…

Divide by Spinewinder
- shelter - by A-T-I-S6765454 by aleksandra88
987532 by aleksandra88coarse calico by bitterev
So Cold by sanjalydia

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This kind of love...

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 31, 2011, 7:01 PM
Only women bleed for the men they so desperately need
Was I blind to see all the reasons you wanted to be free?
Questions, problems, answers, I've got none
This kind of love is killing me

I bleed, everytime you walk away
You would leave everything
Now I'm cryin'
I believed, when you said you'd never go away
But then you did, now every night, I pay for it
I bleed

You left me at the start. The silence is deafening my heart
I examine my scars. Losing my mind, wondering just what we are
Questions, problems, answers, I've got none
What is this love you stole from me?

Why, why? I don't understand
Why, why, do you color my world red?

I bleed, everytime you walk away
You would leave everything
I believed, when you said you'd never go away
But then you did, now every night, I pay for it
And then you did, now every night, I pay for it

Questions, problems, answers, I've got none


-Halestorm

True Blood by fiixxfluttering heartbeat by CharlotteDeSmith
Oath by Zemnitenebrism. by indiae
dont go away by bitterev:thumb119875960:

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